April 10, 1996//”I deserve to make High Honor Roll”

I’m going [to C.A.]. It’s all decided. I think Mr. Math Class likes me. It’s a good feeling. He’s nice, as a friend, I guess. Homeroom Boy is still my idea boyfriend. I REALLY want Ms. McKay to give me an A on my project. I deserve to make high honor roll. PLEASE. It will look so good and all my hard work will finally play off.

Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy Homeroom Boy

April 3, 1996//MORE PROS AND CONS (I’m obsessed)

Acton - Boxboro

PROS:

Friends

Continue at Acton School of Ballet

AP English

AP History

All Honors Courses

CONS: 

Snobby

I have no real identity

Concord Academy: 

PROS: 

Individuality in education

Modern dance

many courses

CONS: 

No friends (yet)

Leaving Acton School of Ballet


(I HAVE THE WORST TURN-OUT IN LEVEL 7. UGH, HELP)

April 2, 1996//”The boys were too grungy”

Private-school girl - that’s me. Maybe. Mom and Dad are all set - I’m goin. I’m still not so sure. OOOOH! I still LUV Homeroom Boy. But he doesn’t even talk to me anymore. I wish he would. It would help me get through the day better. LUV HIM. The boys at CA weren’t my type. Too grungy. 

Why won’t my hair stay flat like hers? She is so perfect. 

(Source: sweetaniston)

March 31, 1996//”A Jennifer Aniston wannabe in an environment of Grunge”

I got cut from tennis, and so did Homeroom Boy. But I’ll keep trying. I am picking up my baggage and moving on. I will make it next year. I am going to Concord Academy for the day tomorrow. I pray that I fit in, thought I probably won’t. I’ll be like a little Jennifer Aniston wannabe in an environment of grunge. Geez, will I stick out.

Maybe I won’t wear “the” outfit. Maybe I’ll be okay in my GAP men’s jeans. I wish I had Roopa’s purple shirt and my back strappy shoes. Or maybe my white shirt and my fleece. Maybe my men’s jeans, the new shirt, my strappy shoes, and my fleece. I hope tomorrow goes well. Maybe I’ll find another Homeroom Boy. But I doubt it. Homeroom Boy is in a league entirely by himself. Maybe there’s room for me… Maybe I can console him! 

March 21, 1996//I Didn’t Feel like Writing for a While - Back!

I have been so busy with school that I haven’t been writing in my journal. Tennis tryouts are today. I want to make it on the team but I wish I had the time. But I’m willing to put in the effort. Just so I can feel like I’m good at something, for once. Homeroom Boy is trying out as well. I hope that if I make it, he does too. And if I don’t make it, he doesn’t either. Or maybe I make it and not him. 

March 17, 1996//St. Patrick’s Day

I told Roopa who I liked. Big mistake - I have to take it back. I promised her last year that I was over Homeroom Boy. I don’t care if she knows I like Bio Class Cutie. Mr. Math Class is okay, too, I guess. Why am I such a turnoff to guys, though? 

Ami B. Homeroom Boy

…. NOT.

March 15, 1996//Life Isn’t Fair

I think I’m leaning towards leaving AB. I don’t know, opportunities like this aren’t common or easy to get. I actually wasn’t expecting to get in [to Concord Academy], but I did. Maybe some good will come out. I still like Homeroom Boy. It’s not fair, why does he hate me? Life isn’t always fair, I suppose. 

March 14, 1996// My ‘Stag Life’

Homeroom Boy definitely doesn’t <3 me. I really wish he did. Three years is a really long time to like someone. I’m so upset. I wish I was pretty so he would <3 me, too. I wish I was supermodel pretty. Then he would ask me to the semi-formal. But I’m not, and he won’t. I swear, I’m destined for a stag life. No one has EVER liked me. Guy-wise, that is. Maybe if I go to CA, that will change. I dunno. I’m not used to change. 

March 13, 1996//Leap of Faith

What if my social standing at AB is as high as it will ever be? What if going to Concord Academy turns out to be a terrible mistake? I really couldn’t care less about the academic part of high school because I can’t go wrong there either way. It won’t be a problem. But the social aspect of it will definitely be a problem. What a decision. I really wish I had help. Anyway, at least I got in.